im typing from my bed on the iphone.
so glad this week passed so fast
work is dreadful at the beginning.
was really angry this morning cause
of the many changes and like
i always have to listen to her.
stayed until 8ish
then i went to dakota for dinner
with the regulars haha
its a really happy feeling being
able to meet each other.
was secretly staring at bel
in the train otw home.
she grew alot, we all did.
all in a gd way.
those were the days.

im getting nauseous of work.
but yk is really nice! she makes me laugh
i feel so blessed
i dont even need to share my bathroom.
gdnightx.

ooo sunday at the reservoir was so fun!
you always make me laugh like shit! hmmmm.nice?
work in progress....
yay tmr not gg work,
happy like mad!
:D
i miss phuket!
friday night with tea or dee,



went icesk8ting on sat with my dearest unrendered! sometimes you nvr know,twix can come
dropping down the sky
raining chocolates!
things can actually make a turn for the better,
when you least expect it.
praise god!
last week i went for a couple
of job interviews, hoping for a 2 mths job.
i thought all hopes were lost, when petals offered me
a job with an allowance you can barely put your head tgt.
i was really affected by my ability and worth.
yeah the real world is harsh but my friends
pulled me back up.
i accepted it despite qh&zak's deadly NOs!
and i mentally prepared for my new job with doubts and angst.
Until...
Mindmedia sent me a mail this morning and offered me a short term job!
for a slightly higher renumeration.
Things just happen...
i am jumping with joy!
im gna do my best starting from tmr!
wish me luck!
to conquer all that after effects and keyframes!
:)

btw my bro passed his tp!
yay to him being the chauffeur now! lord i need you to tell me what to do,
im lost and im in total denial.
so many people trying to let me whats best for me
but i dont know which one is you
i dont want to make the wrong move
because i really cant decide for myself,
im this vulnerable person that needs guidance at every
phase of my life,i cant live/think on my own (sadly)
i really need you to tell me str8 to my face,
appear in my dreams or something!
i cant go on assuming and play tricks on my mind
its giving me a migraine & my room is half flooded.
it hurts to know im not ready for the working life
it hurts to know im not good enough
raw? its like.... sashimi.
its moments like these
that slowly breaks you.
i think i just cracked.

what should i do. hmm lets see what happened this week
finally went to el toros my fav place.
went to look at lexines doggies.
teach science.
caught up w alottttt i really mean alot, of movies.

i went for a total of 3 job interviews
i wish i pray i want to get the first job from petal
cause it all fits in very nicely,
(just like how yr fingers fit the space between my fingers heheh)
(ok that one targeting to nobody)
i may take the stopmo job from handburger too,depends.
i just bought a fisheye conversion lens!
for 160,can get for 80 one lorrrrrr,kena rip offfff
but haiyaaaaa, i finally got it!
had lunch alone for the first time sighz.
went back to nyp today to collect grad gown
see ma friends and basically miss the classroom.
thats how we spent our friday nights, in class.
hahaha.

ok gna watch i am number four now!
GDNIGHTTTT. good knight.

summary for today:
i loveeee my new slippers!!!
i loveeee my science kids
the rebound is a good movie, well,
to me at least.
tmr will be a better day cause
i haven recieved any emails. thinking how my life has been a year ago is crazy
life is a constant change, its been drastic but in an awfully
good way.
now everything revolves ard my priorities.
i secured a place in lasalle, send resumes hoping
ppl will hire me for 3 months, contribute to my church
as much as possible. its bearing fruits and im really
proud of myself. i miss my friends and i wish i could
see them everyday just like before. im gna paint
batik bags to try sell as an online business.
(recently read 8 days about investing yr hobbies
and i rushed str8 into it) i am feeling ever determined and
im so happy everythg is turning out the way its turning out.
i cant say its gr8 but its happening to me.
i mean everythg happens for a reason, and i will take it
with gusto. and i have the nicest friends ard.
its like they're always there and they make me so.
happy. be it whatsapp or
monstachat or dropping by my hse or viber.
the candles and my bed and my space also makes me happy.
living better is simple,
you value the things in life
& do what you're suppose to do
its that simple.
i wished i lived in london